It's nice

I don't miss them anymore. I don't envy them anymore.
I was once so so so lonely and wanting anything to be a part of their world again and wishing I hadn't let it all go to waste. Now I don't feel like that anymore. I am perfectly content away from them and their septum piericings and trendy-i-don't-give-a-damn attitutudes. I'm fine! hah!
I looked at her pictures on facebook of their get-togethers and such, these normally make me so sad, but not anymore. I am fine now. How sudden and oh-so rewarding.

I still want to go on an adventure though. I still want to experience more. I'm not in my usual rut, I'm just so sick of college. It's worth it, i need it, but I'm just emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted. I need a break that I won't take. Maybe I should take off a year before grad school? Maybe two? I don't know, we'll see what happens. Right now, I'm just happy to be where I am and with who I'm with.

I am really happy. I'm not content, I am happy. How very strange a feeling.

I am also wired as all hell and I am procrastinating on my 10 page bio paper. oh lordy.

I'm having another episode

I'm getting stir-crazy and indecisive and anxious once more.

I want to do and to see and to experience so much. I don't think I'll ever be able to accomplish what I want with where I am and what I'm doing now.

I just don't know what to do. I want to get out.

Christine

I am in the library again, giving myself some play time before I have to hit the books - hard. I went to starbucks before hand and got myself a grande nonfat caramel macchiato (i always feel like such a loser when i order them, but they're so darn good!). They asked for my name so they could shout it out when it's ready (college thing i suppose) and so I told them "Kristin", although sometimes I like to give them fake names, just for kicks. Well they wrote it as Christine and pronounced it as such. Luckily, when they shouted it out they also yelled my order (more silly-embarrasment) so I knew it was mine.
Christine was going to be my name, that's why I got Kristin. Don't get me wrong, I love my name but I do wish it was Christine sometimes. It's such a pretty name. My mother's sister, my Aunt Debbie, beat her to it with her first born. It's my grandmother's name.
I don't even remember my Nana's name... this bothers me. She was always "nana".
I kick myself sometimes for not doing my biography from 6th grade on her. I love my grandma, but she's still around. Nana passed away a while ago, I seem to remember 2003, and I never knew all that much about her. I wish i had asked more questions and had more pictures.
I still have the most precious of memories with her, but I just wish i had something tangible. I should be grateful for the time i had with her, this is a bit selfish of me.

Woah, so heavy!

Side note: Nonfat Caramel Macchiato - the only reason i even know of the deliciousness that is the NCM is because of this Youth Group Leader, Melissa from Living Word CC. Back when she and I would go out to talk and such (oh goodness don't get me started...) she used to order them. I think that's the only good thing that came out of those meetings...

Okay, play time is over. Time to HIT THE BOOKS!

The more I think about it

The more I truly, deeply believe everything happens for a reason.

More weddings

I just found out one of my best friends from when I lived in colorado (7 years ago...) is getting married! Holy cow! She was so little last time I saw her, we all were, and now she's engaged to be married this January.
Life is wild.
And it moves so fast.
It's a bit frightening honestly.

I know I know

I never update anymore, but I can't help it! School has started back up (well... almost a month ago now...) and I am just so busy! I'm working at Ruby Tuesday and juggling 16 credits, not to mention my new bills that seem to just keep coming and a rather rambunctious boyfriend.

Which reminds me, Mike and Mariah's wedding was last weekend! It was absolutely wonderful, I wish I could just blog my heart out about that one. It was a beautiful wedding, the people were just too kind and Anthony gave an amazing best man speech. We danced and drank and were very merry all day and into the wee morning hours.
Mike and Mariah left on their Sandals honeymoon to somewhere in the Caribbean on Monday this week. Lucky ducks.

Classes are going well, or as well as can they can be. It's my second year here and it's still hella hard! You'd think things would get easier.

Working at Ruby's is okay but not by any means great. I make a decent amount of money and the people I meet are fantastic. It's the people I work with that are not-so-stellar. I mean, I don't care that they don't talk to me or put in any effort to be friendly. That doesn't bother me, hello I have moved 3489173 times and I'm used to it. It's when they're just rude I can't stand. Plus my managers don't listen... I'm still being over scheduled! I hate being "that girl" that's constantly complaining to the managers, but I can't work my entire weekend and twice that week and still have time for my school work! Here we go again... I wish there was an olive garden near by....

Plus, I forked over my licence to the state 2 weeks ago on Thursday. I should be getting it back this Friday, but I haven't received any notification that they've even received it. I'm getting rather annoyed.
Well I'm going home for nicole's 18th birthday (!!!) next weekend, so I'm going to have to take a trip into the DMV and have a little chit-chat with whoever will listen about my license. Bah.

What else... Well the apartment is nice. I had my landlord put new floors in our kitchen and bathroom (because the other ones would come up when you stepped on them... gross) and that looks really nice.

Bamboo is doing terrific! I love my little hamham. We've bonded and I am now a good mommy again. :D

Ant and I are fantastic. We've made plans for our 1 year in Hershey at the Hershey Lodge. It's going to be an adorable little weekend. December 4th!!!

I don't know if there's much else. I have to dash and meet Anth after is class now. We walk back to the apartment together MWF. Plus he's been driving me to work, which he'll have to do at 4:45 today... Plus I kinda sorta skipped out on my Anthropology class today, which is why i even have the time to write this! Slacker!

Okay, well toodles!

Rut

I have finally gotten my summer sickness, and let me tell you it is absolutely no fun. I'm hiding out in Anth's apartment because mine is far too hot. He's out doing God knows what and I am here...

I feel like my life is slipping in to some sort of monotony. I don't have a whole lot to do besides work and manage relationships.
I need school to start back up. I need more to do. I need to be stressed and busy and neurotic. Ruby Tuesday and boyfriend antics just aren't cutting it for me.