music

taylor swift

well i have to do SOMETHING with my life

Well why not speech pathology? They make bank, i'm certainly smart enough. I just talked to them today and it looks like that's my new career path. yay?

I was torn between 4 degrees. Here are the sallaries -
RN:
Employment services $64,260
General medical and surgical hospitals 58,550
Home health care services 54,190
Offices of physicians 53,800
Nursing care facilities 52,490

Occupational Therapy:
Home health care services $67,600
Nursing care facilities 64,750
Offices of physical, occupational and speech therapists, and audiologists 62,290
General medical and surgical hospitals 61,610
Elementary and secondary schools 54,260

Physical Therapy:
Home health care services $67,600
Nursing care facilities 64,750
Offices of physical, occupational and speech therapists, and audiologists 62,290
General medical and surgical hospitals 61,610
Elementary and secondary schools 54,260

Speech Therapy:
Nursing care facilities $70,180
Offices of other health practitioners 63,240
General medical and surgical hospitals 61,970
Elementary and secondary schools 53,110


Now do you understand? All, with the exception of nursing, require 1-2 years graduate school BUT speech pathologists can be reimbursed for their education AND they have excellent job prospects. I've decided.

Is it something i've always DREAMED of being? no, not in the least bit. But the schooling is easier than anything i've had to deal with thus far and the major offers flexibility and a long-term job. That's what i want, that's what i'll do to get there.
my reasons might be wrong, but my heart is in the right place. that's what matters - right? well i'm thinking long-term and in my opinion, that's what i need to do. it doesn't matter.

besides, i get to work with people - help them. That's what i want. i had a speech pathologist working with me when i was little. i can appreciate the career.

it's funny because i don't really care what i do as a job. as long as i enjoy it and as long as it makes a decent amount of money i don't care. my master status is being a mother. as long as whatever career i choose can support me until i am able to get married and have children, i don't care what it is. i plan on being a stay at home mother until my children enter kindergarten. i don't want to miss a minute of their lives. mild psychosis?


ps. music - carrie underwood

beejesus

two things:
one) i almost poured vodka in my ramen noodles
- i just googled how to make ramen noodles in the microwave (yes i'm that challenged) and the instructions said to add water to a bowl. well, i have about 10 water bottles and one water bottle of vodka in my fridge. lo and behold, i grab the vodka bottle. i smelled it first so i stopped myself. thank god. what a waste of ramen that would have been!
two) i decided to use water fountain water ANYWAY so i was filling my water bottle at the water fountain and it made me really have to pee so i ended up doing that cross-legged hop n' bop at the water fountain until the bottle was full. i'm so lazy sometimes...

for those who are also challenged, here's how you make ramen in the microwave:

1. Break the Ramen noodles while the bag is still sealed or leave it in a block to have long noodles.
2. Put the noodles into a bowl. Fill the bowl with water until the water reaches just to the top of the noodles
3. Microwave it for four minutes.
4. After the microwave beeps, don't take it out! You'll burn yourself. Just let it sit for three minutes in the closed microwave. If you must take the noodles out immediately use oven mitts or some other heat protection.
5. Take the noodles out and pour in the flavor packet (if included). Stir noodles until flavoring dissolves.
6. Add any items that you want of your choice.

music

the last goodnight
guns n roses

music

Lady Gaga
Linkin Park
Of Montreal

Jeux D'enfants

Just finished it with english subtitles.

I adore foreign films.
Seriously.

dreams and anxiety

over the last week or so i've been having incredibly vivid dreams and when i wake up i feel fantastic, but sad because i had to leave that dream - even if i can't remember it.

i've also been having really bad anxiety over the same time period throughout the day.

i don't know if they're related but i'd like to know what's going on here.

hot water

for some unknown reason, i cannot get hot water in my dorm shower unless 2 or more of the showers are running.
i've gotten into the habit of turning on two and using one.

cold showers are terrible.
luke-warm showers are worse.

frustration

my stupid mouth.

we were talking and having a good time
then i mentioned that one time
and then he wasn't there anymore.

i'm so frustrated with myself.
i'm actually more than just frustrated.
i'm pissed.

i shouldn't have mentioned it
but he can talk about his past all he wants?

i wanted to spend time with him.
i feel like our days are numbered because of finals next week and summer after that. i'm not going to see him very much
he finally gave me the opportunity to spend just a little time with him today but because i didn't shut my stupid mouth he went to his apartment instead.

that is why i'm frustrated.
because i couldn't watch my words

fml?

love

dictionary.com:
a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

urbandictionary.com:
nature's way of tricking people into reproducing

Sophocles:
One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love.

Other:
The most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone.

Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete.

This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa.

It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them.

Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go.

music

rihanna

block party and then some

it was fun.
i understand now.

i feel really bad. anth isn't doing so hott in bio and i am - for lack of better phrase.
i don't know how to approach it. he tells me he got a D on the last test, and i don't know what to say. he doesn't want my pity and he doesn't want my help - it was the last exam before finals.
i really hope he doesn't attribute his grade to me. i really want him to do well. i would never do anything to inhibit him.

fallen so hard.

ms walk wasn't bad either.

i'm a bit burned from everything.
oh summer lovin.